Resignation Day

Today is the day i want to submit my resignation letter. Hope everything goes smoothly. This time i'm so nekad after thinking & consider all the factors. I'm a grown up women. No more kids. Tak tahulah kenape bila nak berhenti keje je rasa serba tak kene. Bukan sebab takut tak dapat gaji tapi sebenarnyer takut nak dengar feedback dari bos. Bukanlah mengharapkan Bos counter back, lagipun company ni memang nak buang orang, ekonomi tengah down sekarang. Time to explore another talent dalam diri. Pray for miracle.

Plan for another successful income. Aku ade suami yang bekerja, masih boleh bagi aku makan. And aku ade online business yang masih bole bagi aku duit saku. Hope everything goes smoothly. Rezeki ade di mana mana. Cuma hasrat aku nak hantar mak ke mekah mungkin ter delay. Takpelah mak, ade rezeki kita nnti. Sob...Sob....

Hari Hari Makin Lengang

Lengang Hati, Lengang Jiwa. Apekah petandanya? Adik beradik tgh susah ni kt labour room. Nak bersalin anak songsang. Nak tolong ke tak? tak tahu lah. Ya Allah.

Berhenti Kerja

Yesterday at about 4.30PM, Bak my bos panggil masuk bilik. And suprisingly, dia mula merepek cakap this company have financial issue & u get ready to kick out. He speak in a nice way lah but i tak terkejut pun since dah jangka bende ni. And he said, third party from Singapore also bising about me. I don't know about what. Ini mesti si asoo mulut puaka tu punya kerje la. Kalau dia dah tak suke kan. Just keep in mind, this is a good opportunity for me to resign and start expand my online biz. Nak cari keje pon makan masa sebab sekarang ekonomi Malaysia ni pon tgh down. I'm sad the whole day. Share story with husband and the only he can say, "dun worry u have me". "it's not the end of the workd" "i know my wife is strong". He's getting better at counselling me. Tak hairan lah gaji bulan ni boleh dapat cheque. Menunjukkan yang memang this company mmg ade masalah kewangan. So, i'm decided to resign 1 month notice at the end of this month. Lantaklah sape nk ganti aku pon. Tak rugi pon. A better life out there waiting for me. I already make up my mind. ANd it's final. Kali ni bukan ikut kata hati mcm yg sudah, tapi aku mengambil opportunity ini utk terus menjadi lebih kuat. Hakikatnya aku memang sukar nak bekerja dgn Cina especially pompuan. Banyak bende aku nak type ni tapi ntah la, letih plak rasanya.

Jadi cleaner office plak

aik, mentang mentang lah aku sorang je executive kat company ni, yg lelain manager, aku plak yang memerangkap jadi cleaner. Bila si Bos baru ni masuk keje sini, aku plak yg kene sapu meja dia. amboi..nasib baiklah aku ni jenis tak kisah. Redho kanlah hati ini....

A liltle update!

So long, now i'm came back with a different story. Of cause, manusia will never stop mengeluh dan merungut. But this is y way to express my feeling. Writing in the blog using unknown identity. Ha ha ha. what everlah kan. Asalkan segala gejolak dihati ni dapat di rungkaikan.
It's 10 days after my birthday & just finish Hari Raya celebration. And today is the first day after a week off for holiday. Beraya dengan gaji takde..alahai sengalnye la.. i'm still working in GISB. Bertahan agak lama. This company is so sempoi. No punch card nak touch pagi2. Gaji pon ok. Keje pun kurang banyak dan bos bos pon OK. Tak ramai orang kat office. Just execute a small business but high profit. Bonus pon dapat tiap tiap tahun. Tak miss. Cuti pun senang nak apply. Walaupun tempat keje and workplace quite jauh about 45 minutes drive but i'm still happy. Cuma kadang2 terasa sgt malas nak bangun pagi. Oh My, bilelah aku nak berubah bangun pagi, buat breakfast untuk suami, enjoy the morning smell. huhuhu..kurang productive dalam hidup...

Until one day, there is a chinese lady enter this company as Finance Manager. terus berubah, aku jadi stress, dia pulak jenis yang tak satu kepala dgn aku, agak skema. strict dan sebagainya. Aku jadi tak happy untuk ke tempat keje. Pray that she will leave & until one day, i dah print resign letter and tunggu nak bagi je. Tapi atas tiupan doa my husband, i tak jadi berhenti keje. He still hoping that i will help him. At least aku dah bebal je. Pergi keje balik keje. Seolah olah makan gaji buta. Masuk office pukul 10. Lunch 12.30, kol 5.30 dah balik. Bukan ke tak cukup 8 jam....haha. Masuk keje kol 10 pagi tapi aku bukan terus buat keje pun. Masih terbangak bangak lagi check FB lah, cek email lah, cek segala yg ade, issue semasa, barulah start buat keje. HUHUHU.. Teruknya aku.

AND TODAY, VERY SUPRISINGLY, a chinese man from China boleh pula reporting kat sini. And his face look very bold & bossy. OMG, apekah akan terjadi padaku. Rasa nak give up pon ade. Tapi kita tgk dulu lah. Aku memang berkira kira nak berhenti keje tapi tgk lah nnti mcm mana kan. Nak sgt buat business online secara serious. Oh ya, business online craft ku dah semakin ok. Sebulan boleh la dua kali gandakan ganji. Boleh beli ape nak. Bole tampung bayar hutang itu dan ini dan yang paling penting, wallet tak pernah kering. Dapat bantu suami bayar bil internet pun dah OK..Kene lebih rajin dan bersabar je lagi. Keep posting dalam instagram and should be ok kot. Itulah dah plan to expand the business but still blurr. Maybe need help and need another hand.

Tentang kekeluargaan, i'm still not pregnant. But, my period delay 1 day today. Hopefully ade lah rezeki kali ini. Kadang kadang give up juga tapi i should not give up. I'm strong...Kadang kadang dah terlewat period satu hari pun dah cukup mengembirakan. At least there a hope walaupon akhirnya akan datang juga period itu. Nak emo pon tak guna, For me, me and my husband not try hard enough and we miss a lot of good opportunity. Banyak focus ke bende lain. Just pray for the best!